alright!
CNY is around the corner.
cnt wait for th ang bao money!

GIMME GIMME MOAR. LOL.

been living like a weirdo for this week.
sleeping at 8am. waking up between 2-7pm.
been on my bed almost the whole day.
like some bed-ridden patient.
pfft.
nothing to do what.
except for my FYP deliverables.
which im just too lazy to do.

finally gathered enough resolve to complete my final presentation slides.
damn pround of myself.
the first time i ever made so much effort for a presentation.
shit im graduating already.
im gna miss the times. sooo much.
but well, we all gotta live our lives.
another 13 days kid.
no more studying.
i could still remember how much i wanted to get out of this hellhole.
but now, i cnt bear to leave.

these 3 years in poly has changed me alot.
it was
impactful.
amazing.
wonderful.
cool.
fun.

so many things happened,
lets see what were the major stuff. - in chronological order.

-went to NYP due to a dumb reason.
-unglam shit happened.
-fell out of love.
-pranked my poor classmate for one entire semester every single day (felt bad though)
-found my classmate clique
-mass produced reports the whole time.
-started dancing jazz.
-got to know loads of people from all polys. Polytechnic Forum 2008.
-got to know my 2nd close group of friends. Slut Union WOOOO!
-fell in love.
-clubbed like free for so long.
-fell out of love. (wtf LOL)
-started breaking. loved breaking ever since.
-studied like hell for my final exams.
-went for attachment at botanical gardens.
-got to know my 3rd group of friends. where one of my best friends is in.
-started FYP.
-fell in love.
-got injured during breaking, but still breaking
-somewhat fell out of love. pfft.
-thinking back of the 3 years (now).

still got loads of undocumented stuffs though.

well, i really can't express how much i love my friends.
if not for them, my poly life would be boring as hell.

so to these people, you know who you are.

to junhao, yonghong, lileng, nicole.

we're like together for like 7 years ah!
it's cool to see how much everyone has changed into.
we all started from separated people during sec 3.
junhao + yonghong ; lileng + nicole; me-extra.
but for some unknown reason, we just clicked like that.
it seems almost as if, as if we known each other from our past lives.
well, things were rocky at the start.
but we all toughed it out.
and now, we're all standing tall!
you guys taught me the meaning and power of friendship.
love you guys for that.

to my classmates clique,

powerpacked support from u all this 3 years!
in almost every aspect.
it's because of u guys that's why im graduating together with u guys.
we had our fair share of fun.
we all should go to khatib for some lunch, walk around yishun park and go to yishun for dessert.
just like the old times.
those we awesome days. (:

to my poly clique,

you guys brought me into the outside world
for real.
i got to experience the many spoils and joys of life thanks to you all.
although i somehow disappeared halfway,
just to let u guys know you all are still my good bros aye.
miss all th drinking at benji's hse though.
ambrose's birthday was a blast.
thanks guys (:

to ken and ald,

i dno what to say to u both cb-s.
LOL.
k la k la, love u both la hor.
aldrich don't laugh to urself when u read this.
you guys know what i mean alr la.
it's mutual bros.
ken cya soon.

to all my friends,

it was real great knowing you all.
well, you know who you are.
thanks for being part of my life.

so happy to have so many good people in my life.


well, that's not all i wna say.
but i cnt think of anymore now.


ohwell, spending valentine's day alone.
dates ? dates ? dates ?
oh bugga, spend alone sua. LOL.

om-nom nom nom.

it's been a week.
uneventful.
slept at home mostly.

i realized my bed is really really comfy. the longer u sleep on it, the better.
haven't been attending much school.

well, went shopping for new year stuff on sun.
got a pair of new shoes.
nike dunk high cuts wooo.
this one's white and red.
wanted to buy another pair but
MUST CONTROL!
shall buy more shoes when im in taiwan.

well, went for class bbq.
pretty much okay.
nothing special.
no booze.
no nothing.
just food.
pure good family fun with my classmates for 3 years and my class mentor plus some of the NYP lecturers.

got notified that my dad was rushed to the hospital.
so worried luh.
good thing it was nothing serious.
he's recovering now. PHEW.


went to school on monday.
reached at 4pm.
latest record ever.
cause i just went to find my teacher thats all.

danced in school till late.
with my crew.
AKA crew's first session together LOL.
started on Feb 4th.
why AKA?

A = Aldrich
K = Kah Kyun
A = Andy

no comments. but dope name. hehehe.
gotta train harder to catch up to both ald's and kkk's standard.

things to do,

DO FYP PRESENTATION
DO FYP AES
DO FYP PROJECT REPORT
BREAK MOARRRRR
WORK WORK WORK
current goal - TAIWAN :D

sprained my left ankle.
again.
wtf.
4 times in 2 weeks.
powerpacked sprain this time round.
this time my ankle swelled so much LOL.
to think i continued to break 1 hour after i sprained my ankle.
still able to toprock but not as much twisting to avoid spraining it again in the same day.
but i dont care.
i still wna break.
99% breaking tmrw.
the fear of landing hard on my left foot makes me stay up longer when im doing my 1990s.
nice :D

it's not that i don't care about my body.
it's just that i feel better when i break.
breaking makes me happy.
VERY VERY HAPPY.
so since im happy, im satisfied LOL.

im pursuing my passion.
im doing things i love.
im spending time with people who i love wholeheartedly and those who feels does the same.
im happy.

that's all i need. period.




anyways
i have to speak my heart out now before i go mad.

this post is for you. yes you.

first you come in so enthusiastically.
then you continue to amp up the mood.
followed by the classic game of hot and cold.
finally treating me in such a cold manner.
eventually booting me out of ur perfect little life.
i wonder if you treat friends this way.
simple thing, friends.
is it so hard?
so far, you have shown me something.
something i shall say next time.

so what you want now.
you tell me.
seriously.
if u feel u gave the wrong idea to me.
just say, dont have to scared.
but i assure you.
even from a viewpoint as a simple FRIEND.
i am disappointed.
very much.

somehow i feel.
yes i like you.
and if you dont like me, just tell me.
but seriously
you cant go :"im gna avoid u cuz i dont want to give u the wrong idea. because i don't like you. "
that makes you lose a friend in the process right?
seriously, come on.
we're all old enough.
i can take it.
it's not as if i have never got rejected directly before.
if nothing else happens, we can still be friends right?

i've obviously hinted to you.
i mean, the big obvious.
but yah,

i may not look good, but i try to make it up with other aspects of me.
i may not have alot of money, but i will work hard to live comfortably.
i may not have a car, but i can accompany you to take the bus or the train.
i may not have the type of life you wna have, but im fine with your's as long as it's with you.

but the only 2 things a girl could get from me - good old andy and his heart.
not every girl would want to settles for just these.

prolly ure not even reading this
but yeah.
i feel so much better letting it out.


imma hit the sacks. ciaos people.

epic coughing season.
cough.
cough.
cough.
cough.

not having enough rest these days.
my sleep keeps getting disturbed by my cough.
grrrr.

yesterday was thaipusam.
saw it happening in town.
kinda cool.
walking around with those metal stuff pierced into ur body.
or should i say gross.
but there was pretty much a festive spirit going on there.
and of course, many people.
town was exceptionally crowded.

caught Legion with sammi ytd.
powerpacked movie!
cool plot : God lost faith in all humanity
the stuffs in the movie are kinda disturbing but action packed.
i mean, imagine an old granny say to a pregnant lady
"Your baby's gonna fucking burn!"
gives me the creeps.

went to meet seth tgt after movie.
conclusion : seth is literally blind when there are chicks around LOL.
we were sitting 3 metres away from him yet he couldn't see us.
chatted with him on the phone for a good 5 minutes before he even realise we were beside him.
damn funny.

ohwell, nothing much happen for th day. boring boring singapore.
cnt wait to go taiwan in april.
to get away from it all.
live a life of a king for the time im there.
a proper vacation before i enter army.

poooooo. boring days are the worst.
yawns.

i just realised the song..

" You make me wanna" by Blue

really shows how i feel.

man. i should be in school right now.
dno what the hell im doing at home.
stupid insomnia is screwing up my body nicely.
so far the earliest i ever slept was at 2am, after being awake for 1 1/2 days.
other than that, it's always 4am onwards.

shall start doing some bit of research for my FYP presentation soon.
graduation's staring at me in the face.
feeling 2 decades old is not a good feeling.
blergh.

just realised something.
my left ankle is swollen.
meh.

yawns. back to the bed. (:

doing something you love with someone you love, that's the best thing in life.

but what if you can't find someone you love.

simply put.

PHAIL

had my longest sleepless streak this year.
record at 36 hours.
did much stuffs.
sneaked into some sec sch,
then bedok reservoir to chill with seth, aldrich, ron and their two friends.
pretty much nice place to slack.
best for stargazing.

didnt go home after that, went straight to school
reached at 7.45am.
literally sit like an idiot for an hour waiting for my TSO to open the labs.
went in and chiong my work.
left school at 1pm.

reached home.
changed and went out to 313 and cine with sammi.
waited for seth like forever.
cuz he was doing some shoulder physiotherapy.
he managed to catch 5 hours of sleep. lucky ass.
chilled awhile, then sammi went home.
she's deprived of sleep too LOL.
LAN-ed at Big-O.
chiong last bus home lols.
the whole time i was phasing in and out every few minutes.

reached home
not long after
i died for 12 hours
before waking up at around 2pm today.
powerpacked sleeps. :D

went to break again today.
with my half recovered ankle.
guess what, i re-injured it again while training swipes.
well done andy.
but in return, my 1990s improved again.
sucks to have to walk home while enduring the pain.

maybe i just need answers.

alrighty, here we go.
my 8mnths standard video.
ok, maybe not the ending freeze.
the ending was pretty much crappy.
gna upload a joint video with aldrich and kkk later.
stay tuned for that, it was so much better thou it was taken on the same day LOL.

went to break at school with aldrich, seth, ron, kkk, martin.
did a couple of videos.
finally.
gna come up with something special (:

twisted my ankle just before i was going to stop breaking.
at the last song somemore.
wth sia.
limping around is such a pain in the ass.
ack.

ohwell,
went to slack at bugis and then dhoby ghaut with seth, aldrich and ron.
eat, drink, shisha, lan.
must find more things to do in singapore.
it's getting too damned boring!



ohwell, these few days, i've been thinking alot.
how fair is life.
say in the aspect of love.
although i've got used to living the singlehood lifestyle,
where i can do anything i want.
anytime, anywhere with anybody.
however, a small part of me still wants to be in a relationship
to experience some good old-fashioned love.
the feeling that you are needed by someone
where you know they're thinking of you.

it's bad to say this but at times i feel jealous.
don't get me wrong, i don't get jealous easily thou.
well, i've seen assholes doing unfaithful stuffs behind their girl's back
while still getting all the love and attention from them.
so much for being true.

ok, time to stop bitching.
bitching around can't get you anywhere andy.
LOL.

where are you ?

let me light up the sky
light it up for you.

try.

reached school at 3pm, by right school starts at 9am. soooooo yah. hehe.
finished my lab work in 1hour flat.
think im getting the hang of it already. :D

went for ateam 16th installation ceremony.
also my stepping down from this cca as a senior ambassador.
my god, 3 years zipped by just like that!
that photo up there was taken a year ago LOL.
if i remember correctly, that was my last formal occasion under ateam.
nice memories there i'd say.
best photo, cuz my friend's falling off.

went to observe the ceremony,
headed to atrium to break again with aldrich.
this time i wore jeans and polo tee to break.
since i had only one shirt, decided chiong topless for the whole time.
end up i sweat more than i would if i wore a top. wth?
managed to accomplish one handed stalls on both hands now. all i need to do is to find my balance
a one handed stall is totally different from a normal handstand.
bloody difficult sia.
ohwell, went home with a pair of sweat soaked jeans (ewww).

had a pretty much good day today (:

it's not everyday you come across someone like that.
ohwell, wish i was given a chance.
well....would you?

meh.

it's a long long post. was too tired to blog on monday.
pfft.
was digging around my computer and i found this.
the photo of me being extra tanned.

MONSTER MONDAY LOL!

i was the earliest person to reach the lab.
AMAZING RIGHT.
because i didn't sleep at all.
was helping aldrich with his presentation that was due that day.
ultimate last minute work.
we were sitting outside bukit batok mac since midnight. ALL THE WAY TILL 5AM.
but all thanks to his crappy teacher whose got a brain as inflexible as a wooden block,
he had to redo. all because the presentation was not aligned with the teacher's marking scheme.
wth seriously.

trained to school early in the morning. finally caught up with clara on the train.
lol! it's gna happen once only i think.
unless some miracle happened and i take an early train once more.
best ride to school ever i'd say. (:

went to school. did a stupid experiment which took 5 minutes. then i could leave school already.
bloody hell, seriously waste of time la.
end up went to meet seth at town, ran some errands, went shopping.
almost bought a bag. but dropped the idea.
had some ice cream. it's oh-so-nice. :D
im like having ice cream almost every other day. SHHHIIOOKKKK AHHHHH!

went back to break in school after that.
FINALLY! my 1990s..i can accomplish 1/2 a quality round! and if im lucky a full round.
4mnths of drilling this has finally paid off.
all the falling, all the injury, all the sweat, all the pain..WORTH IT. AWESOME-O!

guess what, i went home and saw dark circles around my eyes. cool shit.
PANDA EYES O.O

TUESDAY!

ok, i was late for my medical check up.
woke up at 1.10pm. check up was at 1.30pm.
i didnt even check how to go to CMPB before that!

ohwell, rushed to CMPB..did my medical checkup.
the blood test was the ultimate. freaking needle as big as the ones used in blood donation.
almost died i tell u. when the guy was drawing blood from me, he was like adjusting the needle
i could see my blood SPURTING out. like in movies. except this time, it's coming from me.
so i went around, did all the stations.
the IQ test best. powerpacked 2 hours. it's worse than any other exam paper i ever took.
i almost fried my brains doing it.
guess what, PES A! yessah! imma apply for pilot! hope i get a chance at this.

went back to school to break today.
today my breaking was totally off form. everything's soo unclean.
ohwell, i'll get better soon (:


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somethings i just want to get out of my heart.

it's not nice to just dua people continuously.
one time, its ok.
two times, wth?
three times, you crossed the line pal.
initially i thought what mishap happened to you in the middle of the night.
worry like crazy because i treated u as my friend.
but when u appeared alive and fine yet dont wna explain ur reason, seriously wth.
no more chances.

next, consistency.
some people needs consistency.
i need consistency.
for example if i like this girl.
my treatment to her would be at least consistent or getting abit nicer each time.
so if this girl happens to be somewhat intrested in me,
i would definitely hope that she would do the same instead of being hot and cold or what.
so if that same girl doesn't like me at all,
i don't mind getting a rejection straight away. at least it clears out the clutter quick and easy, so we can all get on with life.
because being inconsistent makes one confused and unsure of what to do.

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this is a bloody long post. woops. :O

im actually somewhat addicted to drinking tea.
been drinking tea almost every other day.
what an addiction LOL.


well, i feel like dedicating this blogpost to some very important friends in my life.
if not for them, i wouldn't even be sitting here right now typing this.

i've seen many friends come and go.
and sometimes i just sit down and think
it doesn't really matter how many people came by.
what really matters is the number of people who stayed by me.

i find these few things are important in forming true friendships

- being nice

well, for me, im someone where,
if u treat me nice, i'll be real nice to you.
if u treat me like crap, i wont give two shits about you.
if u attempt to make a fool out of me, there's no telling what i would do.
(lol, sound so dangerous!)

- sincerity

make friends because you want to be friends with the person not because of any other motive.

- effort

you have to put effort in a friendship to build it. for example, if i put 50% effort into a certain friendship, i would of course expect only 50% in return. but then again, not everyone conforms to this theory though. some people give in all the way but get nothing in return. so however, do nothing but get all the attention to them.

- trust

i think trust is very important in friendships. if you dont trust a friend, you would never talk to the friend about your problems and your secrets whatsoever. if this happens, your friend only knows you skin-deep so no one understands u well.

- being there for the friend

this is the most important part of being a friend. when you're feeling down, everyone wants somebody to be with them. for example, if i had a ferrari. everyone will be sticking to me/trying to be friends with me because they want to ride my car. but what if one day my ferrari breaks down? would anyone of them even want to take a bus or walk with me to my destination at all? only someone who's a true friend would accompany you in these periods when you're down and out.

so here's a little something i wrote to thank you my friends. you guys know who you are. :D

Friends.

boys or girls we're friends alike.
someone whom i can call out at night.
be it joy, sadness, happiness or fright,
or even a simple sibling fight.

how we came together it seemed unclear,
but the purpose of this deal is clear.
not for money and not for fame,
just someone to walk with through the rain.

it's tough to have a true friend,
it's even tougher to be one too,
but if you are true like the sky is blue,
your efforts will surely come through.

don't stop now that you're way up there
for it's just the beginning of this bond we share
keep going and never give up
and forever i will be there. (:

lols. it's been a while since i've done this. anyways, i dont really know what else to say now.
too hungry to think. shall go for some chow.

monday blues.

i just did an invert today! cool or what. hehe
survived on a kfc 2 pc chicken meal for the whole day. talk about dieting.

anyways, bboy-ed for 7 frigging hours today.
3 hours @ braddel cc - with ald.
4 hours @ nyp - with ald, seth, lucas, gordon, martin.

-im almost becoming no-life bboy-

school's in again. no more long weekends already.
i've got a 50page report to hand in plus a presentation due next month.
even though the deadline's staring at me in the face, im still procrastinating. :\

CMON ANDY. DO WORK DO WORK DO WORK DO WORK DO WORK

hmmm..i wonder what i should do.

splat.

okay..so i dyed my hair.
and cut it obviously.
it's like in layers of red and turquoise. like this:

cnt see the colours very clearly though.

ohwell, stubborn injures, taking forever to heal argh.
especially my wrist.
but i wont stop breaking now or ever.

was packing my room just now. IT WAS MESSY.
to think my mum packed it like a couple of weeks back only.
now it's literally clothes thrown everywhere like a warzone.

after packing i realised this is what you stand to gain if u were to break into my room :

- an asus laptop
- a fujistu tablet pc
- a psp
- a nintendo ds lite
- an ipod classic
- an ancient PS2
- an ancient ipod mini

bloody hell, so many things.

think i should mount a tv in my room, if not i will be forever disconnected from the TV world real soon.
besides, it's gna be an awesome entertainment room if my friends come next time.

hmmmmm..

i'm confused right now.

you have the uncanny ability to cheer me up every single time.
but im unsure of what you're thinking.
sometimes everything just seem so transient.

my brain's telling me "forget it. get on with life. you dont need anyone."
my heart's telling me "cmon, just give it a try! you never know what's the result."

maybe you are reading this, maybe you aren't.
maybe you already know who you are, maybe you dont.

give me sign will ya? (:

alright, im back.

ahh, its the new year already.

time flies, don't you think?
it feels like i just entered poly but now im going into NS in a couple of month's time
guess what, imma try to be a pilot :D


meanwhile, i just wna survive FYP, graduate from NYP.


so many things i wna do this year..

- improve more in bboying
- go on a holiday with my good friends
- spend more time with everyone before i enter boring NS
- do crazy stupid things while it's still fun LOL.

anddd, i would wna fall in love. damn i miss that feeling.
where there is someone there for you to shower all your care, concern and attention on.
and just by seeing them smile, it's good enough for me.

ohwell, wake up andy. wishful thinking la you.

anyways, yesterday was real fun.
backspins getting better already.
spinned topless on the atrium floor, 8 rounds i think.
real fun but i almost puked. MADNESS! LOL.
went home i realised, there's a frigging cut or something on my back.
not rly painful but looks scary lol.
wooweet~

i think bboying has become my life (:

just imagine,

i think of bboying from morning till night.
i dream of bboying from night till morning
i break with my friends from morning till night
and sometimes, night till day.

but im happy doing this. if not, i cant imagine how i would have wasted the past 8 months of my life. doing pointless stuff i presume.

even though i've experienced truckloads of pains and injuries (im typing with a swollen wrist now), it's all worth it. it's like, you can fall like 34908324528908 times learning how to do a 1990s but when u finally accomplish the move, everything is worth it. that's the joy of bboying to me.

ohwell, i'd like to thank my 2 best bboy bros, aldrich and kah kyun. without you 2, i wouldnt be able to even do half of my current standard or even stayed in bboying.

thinking of forming a bboy crew.


ciaos (:

what should i do?

it's been a while.

let's restart this blog thingy shall we?

updates again.

im getting lazier and lazier.
too lazy to blog.

holidays started.



day 1 - clubbing with thomas and company.
day 2 - clubbing with seth and his cousins.
day 3 - crashed at seth's cousin's place for some slpz.
day 4 - danced like mad. 8 hours. i need more.

today.

only meal of the day : 3 slices of bread, 3 fried eggs.
cwalked, breakdanced at school with thomas and then crew session latr.
it's time to come up with some decent routines.
gna dance latr. awesome-0.

i love to dance. it takes you to another world. totally.




im feeling down.
im feeling hungry.
im feeling tired.




sleep the days away. dance the nights away.

argh.

sitting at the corner of tutorial room.
coughing, sniffing, sneezing away.

i feel so hungry.
i feel so exhausted.
i feel so sick.


fever.cough.flu.exhaustion.

think im fall sick real bad.
i dont wna fall sick, not now.


gna dance latr in school.
i think.


sleep the days away. dance the night away.

mr wednesday.

went for a short photoshoot session today.
somehow, the only decent shot i took. i think.
the rest looked so....not nice.

i've been slacking the whole day today. literally sitting in bed the whole day till 5pm i think.
made a triple decker double egg sandwich. cuz i was too hungry. downed it with a cup of slurpee.

chilled out with seth later on.
went to esplanade.
danced, photoshoot.
was still too hungry. had subway for dinner.
lan-ed at parklane.
demigod is so addictive lol!

because of demigod, i took bus no. 14 home to clementi.
because of demigod, i cycled home from clementi on seth's bike LOL.



damn tired.
danced for the past 3 days.
shiok.




sleep the days away. dance the nights away.