sprained my left ankle.
again.
wtf.
4 times in 2 weeks.
powerpacked sprain this time round.
this time my ankle swelled so much LOL.
to think i continued to break 1 hour after i sprained my ankle.
still able to toprock but not as much twisting to avoid spraining it again in the same day.
but i dont care.
i still wna break.
99% breaking tmrw.
the fear of landing hard on my left foot makes me stay up longer when im doing my 1990s.
nice :D

it's not that i don't care about my body.
it's just that i feel better when i break.
breaking makes me happy.
VERY VERY HAPPY.
so since im happy, im satisfied LOL.

im pursuing my passion.
im doing things i love.
im spending time with people who i love wholeheartedly and those who feels does the same.
im happy.

that's all i need. period.




anyways
i have to speak my heart out now before i go mad.

this post is for you. yes you.

first you come in so enthusiastically.
then you continue to amp up the mood.
followed by the classic game of hot and cold.
finally treating me in such a cold manner.
eventually booting me out of ur perfect little life.
i wonder if you treat friends this way.
simple thing, friends.
is it so hard?
so far, you have shown me something.
something i shall say next time.

so what you want now.
you tell me.
seriously.
if u feel u gave the wrong idea to me.
just say, dont have to scared.
but i assure you.
even from a viewpoint as a simple FRIEND.
i am disappointed.
very much.

somehow i feel.
yes i like you.
and if you dont like me, just tell me.
but seriously
you cant go :"im gna avoid u cuz i dont want to give u the wrong idea. because i don't like you. "
that makes you lose a friend in the process right?
seriously, come on.
we're all old enough.
i can take it.
it's not as if i have never got rejected directly before.
if nothing else happens, we can still be friends right?

i've obviously hinted to you.
i mean, the big obvious.
but yah,

i may not look good, but i try to make it up with other aspects of me.
i may not have alot of money, but i will work hard to live comfortably.
i may not have a car, but i can accompany you to take the bus or the train.
i may not have the type of life you wna have, but im fine with your's as long as it's with you.

but the only 2 things a girl could get from me - good old andy and his heart.
not every girl would want to settles for just these.

prolly ure not even reading this
but yeah.
i feel so much better letting it out.


imma hit the sacks. ciaos people.