hesitation

back to blogging.







i dont know why, but i've been thinking about this for quite a while. it's time to stop wasting people's energy and time on me.

she's putting way too much effort on me. i can see she's trying so hard. it hurts so much to see her keep trying. yet i know that no matter what i do, i wont be able to love her more than she loves me. i know that there will never be 'balanced' love in a relationship, but for this case, the difference is too great.

but i see you as someone who could be one of my best friends or buddies, but not as a girlfriend. it's like, i'd rather have u as a best friend forever, rather than we have a super big arguement next time in the future and disappear from each other's lives forever.

it aint fair for her.

guess it's time to go.

i do love you baby, but i just can't love you enough.