ending.

guess my decision stands. i shall just walk away then, to prevent furthur damage.

after talking to her mum, i think whatever i done, have hurt her alot. she said to patch up with her would be better, but what for?
if it doesnt work out what for?
if the same ending was to come up again then why waste both our time?

she cries under her blanket.
she cries alone in the corner of her room when no one is watching.
she cries in the bath just like running water from the taps.
she cries in her heart where no one can see it.

she is a kind of person who makes a wonderful girlfriend. she tries hard. very hard.

maybe i shouldnt have stepped in at all
maybe i should have given way to the others who will treat her like a goddess, people like gibson, terrance and jerald. i bet they will treat her 4284723987 times better than i do.

why am i regretting this decision? i dont know.
this is getting fucked up. no, it's alr fucked up.
love is fucking complicated. think im not made for it.

i was chatting with my friend, about how both my past relationships impacted the other person somehow causing them to change for the good. she was saying like, 'maybe you're born for this.' i was like no, no fuckin way.

so now i'm here, blogging away at 5am. with a laptop which is gna break down any minute. the hinge is gna fucking break soon. die. life's so boring. maybe i should find something fun to do.

dancing is fun.
drinking is fun.
partying is fun.
eating is fun.
sleeping is fun.

happiness is a stone's throw away but how far is it? i dont know.

i need to go out more.
i cannot coop myself at home if not i'll go mad.
i feel so fucking messed up cuz there's too many things happening at one go.
i wna go take a ride on a ferris wheel.
i wna sit on the roof top of singapore's tallest building.

cuz when you're high up, everything that looks confusing and hazy, becomes crystal clear.


argh. love sucks.
can't you see?









but then from this, i can see.
shermin, u've changed.
for the better.
well, go forth and charm another guy. :)

be his world. be his goddess.
be his one and only love.
be the one he calls " my love "
for that is what you're worth

that smile of yours, that eyes of yours
so amazing and so sweet
will make his days monday thru sunday
all seven days of a week.

treat him with a little hug, a peck
a kiss and more.
give him one tight hug to show
that your love for him is pure.

dont look back with hesitation or regret
for this wont get you anywhere
just keep on going forward
and he will meet you there.

written by andy.
to you.
6.15am.


shermin - my love, my baby, my honey, my dear
i guess it's time for us to end our chapter.
our story ends here.

The End.